Argh!!!!!!!!!

I wanna blog a post to express my emotions and feelings during this period..preparation for 4th block exam as well as uni exam(hopefully it is)...feeling so miserable...can't find another word to describe it...Time's running out and fast!!!! wah, "can die"..."can die".. other than "sweat", this is da words I just started to use recently....

I love this!!!

1	Liverpool	20	13	6	1	22	45
2	Chelsea	20	12	6	2	31	42
3	Manchester United	17	10	5	2	18	35
4	Arsenal	20	10	5	5	10	35
5	Aston Villa	19	10	5	4	10	35
6	Everton	20	9	5	6	2	32
7	Wigan Athletic	19	8	4	7	3	28
8	Hull City	19	7	6	6	-8	27
9	Fulham	19	6	8	5	4	26
10	West Ham	20	7	4	9	-4	25
11	Bolton Wanderers	20	7	2	11	-6	23
12	Portsmouth	20	6	5	9	-12	23
13	Manchester City	20	6	4	10	8	22
14	Newcastle United	20	5	7	8	-6	22
15	Sunderland	20	6	4	10	-8	22
16	Tottenham Hotspur	20	5	5	10	-5	20
17	Middlesbrough	19	5	5	9	-11	20
18	Stoke City	20	5	5	10	-15	20
19	Blackburn Rovers	20	4	6	10	-14	18
20	West Bromwich	20	5	3	12	-19	18

Cherish

Scouting friends who had accompanied me for five years of high school life. We played, we suffered, we organised activities, we argued... At last, we did make a different...

Classmates of A-levels for 1.5 years...I remembered da time we're struggling to finish assignments, chemistry work by ms. voon, studied in common room and hung out at "mamak" stall...

Another bunch which I'm going to walk with for another 5 years...

Xmas Eve

It's pathetic la...how can it be, da exam is held during christmas eve?? Luckily I've got thro it...and tomorrow is holiday. My place here definitely is not as happening as in KL...tonight will be spending da christmas eve with my friends having a simple xmas eve dinner instead of going church cuz da midnight mass last till after 12am and hostels have curfew..but i will go to churh for tomorrow morning mass...though tomorrow is holiday, there's no big plan being planned since block exam and uni exam are near so enjoy tonight...feel da xmas....

Insecure

My revision progress for today was not bad though yesterday seem suffer from insomnia (or da black coffee i drank for dinner had its effect which normally don't)....Just came back from a friend's early birthday celebration since we will be having histology practical exam on christmas eve...Spending christmas in india is pathetic lah....no proper xmas celebration at here also... haih, don't know why..feeling damn insecure....

How??!!!

I'm having many question marks in my mind now...How not to feel sleepy? How to be more concentrate? Where to start for revision? How to start? And a lots more.... I'm really LOST!!!!!

Seriously, this is da Last

1. What’s your ambition?

A doctor. Earn enough in future to lead da life I want.

2.Who is more important to you?Friends or boy/girlfriend?
Friends. DuHh!

3.How often do you think of committing suicide?
Never.

4.Do you think you have enough confidence?
At times yes. Sometimes no.

5.How many babies you want?
Most people know that I will go for adoption. But my desired number of kids is 2 and maybe 3.

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yes. It's Science. Depends where you stand.

7.What is your goal for this year?
This year going to end soon. I hope I pass my uni exam next year February.

8.Do you believe in eternity love?
I think so.

9.When is your birthday? (HAHAHAHA!)
6th of April

10.What are you really afraid of?
Lose any friend at this time especially those I really care.

11.What are your bad habits?
Addicted to crapping sessions, internet and SMS-ing. That's it. Time not allow me to do so much.

12.Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
You noticed my imperfections? Next time tell me before start hating me. I will explain myself. Thanks for giving me another chance.

13.State a random fact about yourself.
I'm not a boy. LOL

14.Do you have any pets?
Yeah. But currently don't have any.

15.What do you crave for the most currently?
All types of malaysian food.

16.Describe the person that tagged you in 7 words.

16. What's your first choice for christmas present?
Sony Ericsson Xperia X1 which sounds impossible

17.Are you currently single or...?
Single!

18.What is in your mind now?
Are they useless?

19.Who are you?
Homosapien. Hopefully.

20.What makes you happy?
Many things. Too much. Currently, enjoy coffee and crap with friends at CCD.

Instructions:Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 peoples. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they’ve been tagged.

I will tag:

• Sin Siuew
• Hwee Wen
• Dennis Yuean

I cant think of another two.

Dad, can I buy this? LOL

It will be so great if I'm able to get this for christmas present. LOL. It's Sony Ericsson Xperia X1...

It's time to make a Wishlist

Christmas is around da corner which I really can't feel it. I'm counting down days to university exam instead of Christmas and New Year. This year my christmas wishlist will be a bit different. cuz parents are not with me (i mean their credit cards..lol), no friends here have da tradition of exchanging christmas presents... last but not least, no decent shopping mall here to get da stuff I want.. Here comes my wishlist :

• Time, please go slow
• Brain, be more effective
• No more big bomb blasts or terrorists attack, anywhere in India
• Pass all da subjects for tests, 4th block exam and uni exam
• Big problems stay away from me...whatever it is
  

For time remaining until university exam finish, these are all I want. May God always be with me. Haha...

p/s: carly, if u read this post....maybe you should keep my christmas present till next year august when I'm coming back to Malaysia...ngek

Good Cause

Today is my first time visit a slum area as seldom to get a chance to do so back in Malaysia. I've learned quite a number of things. Able to get to communicate and spend time with those needy people who are seldom approached by others unlike those reachable organisation eg: orphanage, old folks home and etc. Besides, I get to learn their language Kanada in order to speak with them. They are the poorest of poor. We departed to the slum area around 315pm by auto shared by 3 person per auto. I guess the pictures belows explain it all...

One of my senior is showing the kids the correct method of brushing teeth. Most of the kids just looked at us instead of her. Haha.

They were lining up after getting the complimentary tooth paste and tooth brushes distributed by us. The lilttle girl in da pic above looked so innocent and cute. I love this pic.

They were so happy and gave a sign of peace in front of the camera.

Now it's the time for them to apply what they've learned just now.

Actually most of da kids are not listening when the senior was explaining. So, better show them da real action.

They were doing great. But some of them swallowed the toothpaste until we told them not to do so.

After da brushing teeth session, we were busy distributing da used clothes to them. Thus, lesser photo is taken.

All da kids n adults after they've got their clothes, our members will chop a sign on their hand to prevent some of them took too many sets of clothes. Who knows? They were so clever, they went to washed off the sign and came to line up again. The situation seem out of control and some of them even try to grab da clothes from our lecturer who following us. Of course we shouted and tried to chase them away, guess we need to protect da lecturer gua...At last, our leader asked us to pack and leave immediately. A group of kids still pulling da bags which contain clothes while we trying to move it back to da car. After safely moving all the stuff into da car. The leader shouted, "MMMC people, let's go!!!" (sounds more like RETREAT or Abandon ship... lol)... Of course I showered myself properly after back at home cuz senior told us da skin disease is CONSTAGIOUS...(cuz touched and hugged da kids).. Overall, it was fun and beneficial.

So Much To Do For Them

I've joined a voluntary organisation named Huluran Kasih. Tomorrow will be the first time to visit a slum area nearby Manipal to help those needy people. If I'm not mistaken (according to seniors), our mission for tomorrow is to teach them how to brush their teeth, complimentary toothbrush and tooth paste will be distributed to them. Used clothes donated by our students and staffs will be distributed to them as well. I passed by the place before whenever I visit Udupi , by bus or auto. The living condition is bad. Will update you guys more after I back from the trip tomorrow if da internet connection is working well. Gotta go, to attend a short briefing session for tomorrow's trip. Ciao...

Trying to Get Back

These two days my studies progress was slow due to some unpredicted and unpleasant events. Haih. And finally interbatch game is over last night. I felt relieved. To my friends and relatives, don't worry about me cuz Mumbai's attack doesn't affect me at all. My place is 12 hours train ride from there. University exam coming in 9 weeks time. There's a unsolved question in my mind whether moving out to apartment next year. A lot of hesitations and considerations. I really need to figure it out cuz seem like it keeps pulling me and others as well. Caught in the middle. Between what I want and what I should really take into considerations. I'M REALLY STUCKED!!!

Sometimes, if someone keep mentioning or keep repeating some teasing stuff. It's really irritate me. If only mention for a few times, I will take it as a joke. If in the long run and keep mentioning that, I will take it as he or she is having intentions and serious about what he or she is saying. It happened before and I lost a friendship because of that though that time the stuff was applied true to my friend but not me. If seriously meant it that way or having any problem with me, just be straight-forward. I will clarify it. And don't beat about the bush by teasing here and there or whenever and wherever. Don't simply jump into conclusion when I think you're still don't know me enough to do so. With the age you're having now, should be able to know what should and shouldn't be said at the right time.

Sulci and Gyri

Last block of 1st year is totally about BRAIN and it's freaking hard. The Walking Gray told us we will be more intelligent if our cerebrum has more sulci (plural of sulcus) and gyri (plural of gyrus)..For your info, the Walking Gray is our head of Anatomy department and he is taking most of our lectures class...

I like this book not because of its contents but its layout

How I wish my brain has more sulci and gyri

Walking Gray during lectures. All the stuff written on da board seem didn't absorbed fully by my brain.

SMS by a Medic Student

"Please stay in my pancreas & be my alpha cell...
For u always secrete glucagon when my blood glucose level is low...
A thought of u is like sending CRH from my hypothalamus to my anterior pituitaty gland to release ACTH and my adrenal cortex to release cortisol...
As a thought of u always make me smile..."
-- sent to me by a friend of mine

I'm using Airtel (like Maxis in India) currently. It provides their users 100 free sms everyday within the same service operator with daily rental of Rs 1 (= to RM0.07). So, SMS-ing is one of entertainment other than sports and studies(lol, since when studying became one of the entertainment)....

Happy 80th Birthday, Grandpa!!!

Today my paternal grandpa celebrates his 80th birthday, only 4 of his grandson and grandaughters which including me are not able to attend for the birthday celebration. Two of them are in US, another one in australia and I'm in India.I missed another chance for meeting up with my relatives and cousins. I called my grandpa this morning to wish him Happy Birthday. I heard the noise over there cuz the house is crowded with my relatives. It made me think of CNY before I came to India in February. I'm gonna miss the chance to celebrate CNY with them next year cuz that time I'll be having university exam. Miss my cousins a bunch....Grandpa, happy birthday and God Bless.

AGAIN!!! But not a bad one

Oh again we lost another basketball game to batch 21 seniors by 2 points in 5 minutes extra time. We were leading almost for the whole game. They scored in the last 30 seconds and made the score 20 all. So, need to play for another extra 5 minutes. During first 4 minutes, both the teams scored. THEY SCORED AGAIN IN THE LAST MINUTE. Game over. It was not a bad game cuz only 8 people remaining. another four are on CAST. Seriously, I really doubt plaster is damn cheap in India...

Comes in Double, might be Triple

Argh!!!! I really need to blog this to release stress... 3 of my first team player are in hospital now, 2 already on cast. Betz is having fracture at her finger joint and faiq's ligament at distal radio-ulnar joint is severely torn. Another one is waiting for doctor. Hope she will be okay. Two already on cast, means only 10 players left. Wah, seem I can't take it already. Anyhow, I can't forfeit the game and at the same time I don't want to lose the game terribly as well.

I still heart U

I've been feeling stressed since the day I decided to join interbatch game for basketball under the influences from many parties. At first didn't want to join cuz I knew my class lack of players and seriously we're not going to win this. For me, to play is to win. And basketball needs teamwork, if there's only a few people that know how to play the game. It's not going to work. We started our training 3 days before the first match after able to get a decent number of players which is so hard to get whereas other batches started their training at least one month ago. At last, we have 12 players with 70% of them are first timers. First match was played against the oldest batch of seniors --Batch 19 on wednesday, we lost the game 35-14. It's expected cuz half of that team is playing for our college. It's okay lost to them. Second match on friday, which is yesterday, against the youngest batch of juniors-- Batch 23, WE LOST AGAIN. okay, i knew this is embarrassing. They really played well, can see the teamwork between them. Two more matches to go against batch 20 and 21. I hope my team really can get through this cuz most of my team players are injured. Though we lost two games in a row but at least all of us fight till the end.

Haih, i really don't know how to put this...I played basketball for 10 years already and never lost like that before. The game made me no mood to study and concentrate after practice. Kind of started to hate this game which I heart so much...

Last In da First

The last block of the first year MBBS course started today, this morning I woke up with a special feelings which I really don't know how to describe it. Today is saturday so only half day class till 1130am. 3 hours of lectures, 3 different subjects, 3 different lecturers, but all 3 of them said the same thing or asked the same questions. "Now you're in which block?" "How many blocks you've been through?" "And 4th block is a tough block, revision for da previous blocks should go parallel with your 4th block." OK, done. I think da whole class really get what they meant. FOR OUR OWN GOOD. Since we finished block exam on friday and the new block start immediately the next day, first day of class 30% of the students are absent cuz they went to visit places and relaxed (frankly, 3rd block really packed) and I agreed this is the only time for them to do so. Though I'm not part of it cuz don't want against my principle. Goa trip really sounds tempting, especially to me. After they came back, there will be no more free time. How can I not have fun after exam? This is so not me. By the way, I'm going Mangalore tomorrow for movie -- Quantum of Solaces and "lepak" a while. Everything will back to hectic after da trip.

Viva Voce

Just finished last biochem theory paper and practical yesterday, and had viva voce this afternoon. I was so tensed when i went into the lecturer's cabin. First question it came, I answered well but incomplete. Second question, he asked: synthesis of creatine phosphate?? My mind suddenly went blank so I asked for hint. "Sir, can you give me some hint, what's the first step?" "Haha, glycine...", he said. "Ok, I know already!" Then, i continued to answer the whole synthesis of creatine phosphate. Anyway, everything is over. 9 weeks to 4th block exam and 13 weeks to university exam. I should come out with a study plan till nex year february. And one question still in my head... Going home or a 20-day trip around India after university exam??? cuz it's time to settle the air ticket stuff again......

Carly, don't ever tag me again...

1. The person who last tag you is : Carly

2. Your relationship with him/her is : A-level course mate, supper and football

3. Your five impression of him/her : Spontaneous, Clever, Friendly, Straight-forward, don't give a damn about others

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you : Bought me a Liverpool jersey

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you : Nat, hope you were here...

6. If he/she become your lover, you will : Convince her that I'm straight. Even not, you're definitely not my type. Ngek...

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be : Not existance of "IF"

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will : Just take it

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be : She found out I backstabbing her or I stole her "hard disk" LOL

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is : Talk about PS2 games, football, good brand, electronic stuff and enjoy Chili's

11. Your overall impression of him/her is : Luckily had you when I was in INTI

12. How you think people around you will feel about you? : I care about how those people I cared think of me, but if you have any misunderstanding about me, please let me know...

13. The characters you love of yourself are : Optimism, sporty, observant

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are : Not brainy enough...if yes, i will spend more time for playing

15. The most ideal person you want to be is : Distinction in studies and sports

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them : Thanks for reading this tag and continue to shower me with your love

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you : Not going to tag anyone here

Exam Anxiety

Been spending 3 hours in the dissection hall for tomorrow anatomy spotters exam. Really saturated. Anatomy spotters always the biggest hurdle of the block exam. Hope everything comes smoothly tomorrow. At least don't discourage me at the beginning for the blocks.

Does it looked like selling something in da wet market?
Kidneys, stomachs, spleen, livers......

Urogenital Region

Testis

Hypo-capacity

Yeah, just finished histology practical exam in the morning, around 9am. Physiology practical exam comes in an hour time and yet I'm blogging now. Just feel like blogging ... LOL. Tomorrow still have two tests, physiology and anatomy which postponed from last week cuz due to extra holiday requested by student council for diwali. Haih, still haven't finish tomorrow test portion, forget about the anatomy spotters on friday... whatever I studied just come and go through my brain, it won't stay long especially anatomy this subject..My brain seriously need another external hard disk for it... Ciao...gotta get ready for practical exam.

Here comes a Road Block

Block exam officially start from tomorrow, 830am by Histology practical and all subjects end in next friday afternoon. Haih, long week to go... Can't wait to get through this... I hate da pre-exam feelings...

Happy Diwali

To all my indian friends, wish you all HAPPY DEEPAVALI. And Happy Holidays to my friends in malaysia and Happy Studying for third block exam to all my classmates.

Caught

I was caught "sleeping" in class during embryology class today. Actually I was not sleeping, when the lecturer paused, cant really remember what he was doing already...I just wanna rest my head a while on the desk. Who knows? So unfortunately, at that moment he saw me resting my head on the desk. He asked a question. I answered but I don't think he heard it. "If you're feeling sleepy, you can leave the class". I just keep quiet then. A friend sitting beside me thought she kena already when the lecturer said someone is sleeping cuz that time she was yawning. During break, another friend of mine who sit two rows in front of me came to me and told me, thought she's caught when the lecturer said so cuz she's actually sleeping. The way he's teaching really make people feel sleepy plus exam is coming next week. Definitely most of the students are staying up late for revision...To all the lecturers, please don't blame students for falling asleep in your class if you know the way you teach really induce them to do so..Falling asleep in the class is one kind of "involuntary" action. We, students, can't control it.

Countdown

1 week to third block exam
11 weeks to fourth block exam
14 weeks to University Exam
16 weeks to HOLIDAYS!!!!

Birthdays In Manipal = SIENZ!!!!!

There are four of my classmates' birthday in this month. You guys know how we celebrate birthday in manipal? 2o of us will go out for a meal, "bising" till da boss cant tahan us...but this time improve a bit ady, those birthday celebrations in last six months didnt ve a decent birthday cake. Those october babies are lucky enough, they will get birthday card and cake as well. Wah all da birthday celebrations are not interesting enough la, cuz here no red box, no nice clubs, no nice restaurants, no nightlife and most important thg is there's CURFEW, every1 need to get back to hostel b4 12am. Like tat no fun ady. 2 birthdays were gone, 2 yet to come.

Erm wan to share another interesting info wif u guys...do u know why da boys' best fren called
"testes"? cuz testis in dun noe in Roman or Greek means "I Guarantee"...so b4 the existance of Quran and Bible, those ppl will hold their testis and swear. There comes da word testes and testimonials. Tat's wat my lecturer told us, cuz now we're having male external genitalia topic for our anatomy dissection.

Fireworks

After dinner, went to End Point to play fire crackers with the classmates. Everyone is still in Hari Raya mood. It was so much fun. Sad. Anatomy test on thursday, the portion that covered for this test seem can't be finished. So screwed. Back to books now. Ciao...

Determined???

Two days of holiday were gone. I guessed I didn't make full use of it. All the study plans didn't turn out as what I've expected it would be. By the way, wanna say "thank you" to all my malay classmates for inviting the whole class to "open house". I can't describe the feelings I felt when I'm able to see all the Malaysians regardless the races celebrating raya together in overseas. Indeed this is my first experience.

OMG! Time is Passing Fast...

Orientation for juniors was finally over last wednesday after we've so called "been thro' so much" over the last two weeks... The performance that I joined -- Anatomical Dance which at first everyone think is quite lame at last the effect turned out good. Got compliments from lecturers and even our dean. By the way, I guess is the not sensored power point slides make the juniors so "interested".. Haha. It's already 4th week of 3rd block. It seems I just got back my determination to deal with such hectic life and block exam coming in five weeks time. OMG!!! Been worried of so much stuff recently, orientation, my grandparents and some personal problems which till now still not yet solved...Browsed thro' carly's blog today, realised so long didn't read her blog already, dozen of new posts, just quickly scanned thro' all before dissection class.. A decision that I've forced myself to make during da one month vacation in malaysia seemed working..definitely I really feel that I lack of something now but I guess will get it over soon...I'm feeling down since yesterday, it would be good so that I can concentrate to study.. cuz always can't concentrate if I get "high"..Haha. Sorry for not organizing my post properly...now my brain a bit malfunction, 2.14am india time...yet to finish my histology drawing..Have a nice day!!! Good night...

Untitled

Already back to india for two weeks after enjoyed 4 weeks of vacation in Malaysia. Still not really able to catch up the pace. Been busy preparing orientation to welcome juniors for the last whole week. After practising, it's really make me no mood to study. Finally got my internet connection in da room so able to update my blog at this hour. Some "history incident" is repeated again, i'm trying to fix it now. Really hate myself so much...... Hopefully everything will still in controlled.
Hopefully......

Packing up Feelings as well

Whoa, so long didn't update my blog already though I was freaking free. Just got home from KL, went to KL to do some last minute shopping, watched movies and enjoyed my beloved Chilis before going back to the "jungle" -- India(actually just wanted to pass my time). Watched two movies yesterday, The Strangers and Death Race, with betz. Actually, the plan supposed to have 4 persons in, Douglas How Qi Yuan last minute ffk-ed us cuz I guess he "inherits" some big money and need to go to bank with his mum (juz kidding) and Jc wanted to be a good girl at home. After da movies and Chilis, I accompanied betz to do her shopping at Jusco. Forgot to take down da pic of all the stuff she bought, her shopping power is really unbelievable no matter is in Malaysia or India. Haha. I've bought all the stuff in da list that I wanted to bring back to India, I've spent enough of my dad's money this trip back (feeling a bit guilty now) so IT'S TIME to go "home". Will go to KL this friday morning as my flight is on Saturday morning. I guess still able to catch up for another new movie, Babylon A.D. this friday night. I've packed all my luggage. Now need to pack up my feelings to face da super duper hectic life when I'm back to Manipal. 3o days are really not a long time cuz I didn't get to meet up with all the friends that I wanted to meet, and is not short as well, cuz I was wasting my time most of da time. The weird thing is, I kind of miss da life in Manipal (most of frens scolded me becoz of that).