June 15, 2010

Door (Ranting version)

You think you're right, I think I'm not wrong either, at the end nothing can be solved. I'm trying to fix it, I did whatever I'm able to and my heart's up to, just that da door is not opened to let it all out. If I don't care at all, I wouldn't had give a shit about it. It's occupying my mind, consuming my energy and I'm mentally tired. If only "it's all up to you" in my mind, I won't be sitting here and writing this post cuz I've done whatever I can do. I just need a fucking key to unlock da door. Once more, don't take it for granted.
And thank God, there's still lot of beautiful things and good people to make me happy.

This post specially dedicated to a few souls whom had/have/having some significant meaning in my life from the past, past continuous, present, present continuous and on-going. From every encounters, I get to know who you really are when my mind really can't take it anymore. For you, you just lost da last chance to understand me further more. The funny thing is I thought you know me, at first. Like I said, never try, never know. I do not predict the outcome as long as I'm feeling happy right now. It's enough for me. I'm doing it with sincerity that I can swear to God about it and a little expectation a normal human being should have, if the outcome is not favorable or what I want, maybe this is da definite outcome. Everything will fade by time. At least, I've tried. No regrets.

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